Life's Trials

I have faced many trials and obstacles in my life.  When I lay out my life for all to see, it is simply amazing that I am still standing today!  I do believe that I have grown stronger from every difficult situation I have encountered.  Nevertheless, I believe that any pain will forever leave you scarred.  Here is a little insight to some of my greatest trials. 

I would have to say the first among many of my great heartbreaks was losing my mother to suicide 15 years ago.  Four years after her death, I lost my only brother.  I don't have the greatest relationship with my father.  Mostly, I am to blame.  I have always felt that he doesn't love me the way a father should.  So I built up a wall to protect myself from him.  If that isn't enough emotional drama...I have been through 10 surgeries to date and still recovering from what I consider the most painful operation I have ever had.  I know all of the surgeries have had a significant impact on my health and physical well-being.

As I find encouragement for myself today, I hope to encourage you as well.  1 Peter 5:10 stated, "And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you".  This is what I am personally focusing on... Knowing that there will be a life for me without pain and without heartache.  A life where I will be restored!  I know that I have not been fulfilling God's purpose for my life and I plan to change that starting today.

Questions for Personal Reflection...
What has God called me to do?

Heavenly Father, I ask that you give us strength and encouragement to begin this Journey.  Only you can possibly know and understand the pain in our hearts and bodies Father.  I pray that you heal us  Heavenly Father! Amen