Life's Trials

I have faced many trials and obstacles in my life.  When I lay out my life for all to see, it is simply amazing that I am still standing today!  I do believe that I have grown stronger from every difficult situation I have encountered.  Nevertheless, I believe that any pain will forever leave you scarred.  Here is a little insight to some of my greatest trials. 

I would have to say the first among many of my great heartbreaks was losing my mother to suicide 15 years ago.  Four years after her death, I lost my only brother.  I don't have the greatest relationship with my father.  Mostly, I am to blame.  I have always felt that he doesn't love me the way a father should.  So I built up a wall to protect myself from him.  If that isn't enough emotional drama...I have been through 10 surgeries to date and still recovering from what I consider the most painful operation I have ever had.  I know all of the surgeries have had a significant impact on my health and physical well-being.

As I find encouragement for myself today, I hope to encourage you as well.  1 Peter 5:10 stated, "And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you".  This is what I am personally focusing on... Knowing that there will be a life for me without pain and without heartache.  A life where I will be restored!  I know that I have not been fulfilling God's purpose for my life and I plan to change that starting today.

Questions for Personal Reflection...
What has God called me to do?

Heavenly Father, I ask that you give us strength and encouragement to begin this Journey.  Only you can possibly know and understand the pain in our hearts and bodies Father.  I pray that you heal us  Heavenly Father! Amen

Launch Day...

Launch Day!

Today I am beginning a journey of transformation from the inside out!  My world seems so small most days and my focus is usually on work or my health problems and not where it should be...centered on God and His purpose for my life.  I have started feeling that my life is simply - empty!  I feel that there are a lot of people out there that are finding it difficult to enjoy each day God has blessed them with.  Finding joy and living a purpose filled life is actually quite difficult to do.  I am deciding today to begin living a life full of abundant joy, care to join me?